Hello Ole Friend!
It is your friend from times past
Can you hear me in your heart
Do you know me?
I must have wanted to call you
a thousand times to say I am sorry for that day
The hurt and pain hold stronger to my heart still today
I know the part that I played
I am sorry for everything I have done
It tore me apart
the parting of our ways
It flashes thru my mind
dissecting each moment in time
many times over
It is so like me to do so
It tore me apart
the many hurts I felt
from the sting of your ways
So many say that time will heal all wounds
this I know to be true
as time passes
it lessens
Life musters upon us
widening the gap of what was and what is
I wonder if years will ever erase
the memories we shared
There is such a difference
between me and you
How replaceable I am
It is so typical the
stinging aftermath
echoed lies of what
happened that day
in your circles
Each one walking away from me
losing not only our friendship
but those friendships
I knew connected to you
It tore me apart
the many hurts I felt
from the sting of your ways
Your ways
keep me from
calling I’m sorry to you
for it is the betrayals
that lie closer to my essence
then the sorrowful words
I know that you deserve
But I do not stop here
for it is the passing of time
that will bring me one day
to a place where
humility will live fully
in my heart
and be forgotten
the sting of your ways.
The heart of the matter seems to
have left you untouched
It is no secret our time
ran out
as I continue to view
a playlist of our days gone
the good & the bad
I weep the tears of pain
or smirk a smile
divine the years of
memories
so still the heart
as well as
a lifetime of
adventures shared
I send a whisper
of prayer your way
no matter the
torture of my heart
I carry on healing
It is as it should be
as I feel my spirit soften
As one day there will
lie scar tissue
over the wounds
it is no secret
that what was
will never be fully
cast aside
For I will see it
on the other side
of pain
to one day be seen
thru the gleaming
light of
only love & goodness
All of what was
untouched forever
and what is now
seen in a fresh
illumination
Goodbye ole’ friend
**This is another piece to the “Dear Friend” series I have decided to blog about, in hopes of healing the pain of losing those special friendships I carry in my heart forever. Wishing to once again find new friendships that imitate that which I miss. In journeying the healing path of loss and in hopes it too will assist others in their losses of friendships and other close relationships.
By Diana Wanamaker
Copyright Sept. 16, 2016
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